Back to my back ...

Well, a month after my spinal block, and I am very disappointed this time. I only got a small amount of relief. I see the Dr. again next week. I just don't know what to think. They tell me that my condition isn't operable, but I know that I cannot tolerate this pain for much longer. There has to be something out there that can help. I sit here and meditate, I perform Reiki on myself, I take my medications as prescribed, and take my narcotics as necessary, but I don't want to live this way. I was such an active person 25 years ago, I need to know how to get some semblance of activity back into my life. I miss dancing, playing sports, heck, I even miss walking!!! I used to walk 5 miles a day for exercise, now I can't walk to the edge of my back yard without severe pain. This picture perfectly exemplifies how I feel. I found it on Flickr, the artist is Josh Sommers. It so exactly is the way my body feels. Anyone out there at all who's dealt with this??? I need some support, some suggestions, some help of some kind. If anyone sees this and has any suggestions, I would love to hear them. Please leave a comment.

New coffee for your Keurig

First off, I've mentioned in the past that I belong to an online sampling group called BzzAgent. They run campaigns for various companies where some of their members will be asked to sample, or buy for a reduced price, various items. Right now, I'm lucky enough to be sampling a new blend of coffee from Green Mountain Coffee. I have to tell you, this is great! The coffee is rich and full bodied, it tastes great black or doctored up with your favorite additions. I do notice more alertness after using the Focus blend. Is it just psychosomatic? Does it matter? Anyway, if you're interested in trying it, go to the Green Mountain Coffee site and you can order it from there. At checkout, you can enter code "GMCWELLNESS" and save $3. I do recommend this coffee, it is great.

A period of calm settles on us

Well, we've had a few quiet days in a row here now. A social worker from the jail called, and asked some questions about the one daughter's history, I told her what I could, but she hasn't lived with us in quite a long time. At least she's safe. The other daughter is somewhat settled at the moment, as well. Still a tinder keg searching for a spark, but we're wearing our kid gloves walking on eggshells until she is more settled. With my new medication regime, my back pain is more tolerable now. I'm scheduled for a spinal block the end of October. I had one last year to ease the sciatica pain, so I'm looking forward to it. I hope it helps. I will just need to remember to monitor my activities and remember not to lift things heavier than my five pounds limit. I'm working on some gifts for yule/christmas now. Started a pair of socks for one present, and watching for sales to pick up some gifts for the grandkids. Twelve of them make for a bit of expense if I wait too long to start. My kidlette will be 16 in just a few days. I'm thrilled with the young woman she's growing into, but still miss that sweet little baby she used to be. She's talking about getting a job and her permit. Hopefully, we'll be retiring our parenting hats in a few years. I'm looking forward to being just a grandma. We had the most wonderful Mabon celebration this past Saturday. A discussion of kitchen witchery and then a thanksgiving and bonding ritual for our coven. We made a brew of spices, oranges, sweet cider, and pomegranates. We all had a hand in the preparation, and, after making an offering of it to the god and goddess, we toasted and drank to our high priestess and high priest, then to each coven member in turn. It was a beautiful ritual. Well, happy fall to all, may the final season of the year bring bounty and prosperity to all.