and so we continue

Well, Hubby still hasn't found a job, but luckily he's still contracting at the place that laid him off in May.  He's thinking about putting together a proposal for getting an actual job with the company.  His plan is that he become the finance point-man for the American holdings.  The new owners are also closing the LA office, so that would leave Mississippi, Illinois, and New York.  I think it may work.  This may be to job we've been waiting to find.

I am vending at the local Pagan Pride day.  I've been putting a lot of time into making things I hope will sell.  Pieces ranging in price from $3 to $75.  Good range of styles from chakra/rainbow colored items to my fine art glass pieces.  I love making this stuff so much, I hope to find people that love it enough to buy it, as well.  This is one of my favorite.  Still debating on actually selling it.  Sorry the picture isn't very good.

So I see I have some visitors.  I hope you get something from my random meanderings.  I always had trouble keeping a diary or journal, but writing here helps.  Maybe it's because I want people to read and, hopefully, comment.

Under all that is going on superficially, I still feel grounded and centered.  I'm learning to be good where I am.  I think part of this is the numerous times I've invoked the God during ritual.  I love invoking the Goddess, she brings joy and strength.  Invoking the God is just as fulfilling, in a different way.  I feel taller, stronger physically, more mentally focused.  I think it helps me understand men better.  I would encourage everyone to invoke deity in the gender opposite of their own.

One of the interesting things is that I've been seeing tons of dragonflies lately.  Indoors, walking outside, riding my scooter around camp, everywhere.  I am trying to interpret the message spirit is trying to send me.I have an inkling, but I want to be sure before I take an action.  I've also been seeing a lot of cardinals.  Flying in front of my car mostly, a couple in the yard at my house.  I haven't seen hardly any for years, so it's obvious right now when I'm seeing an abundance of them.

Well, I think I'm done rambling for now.  Once again, please comment, even just to say Hi or let me know your thoughts on my musings.

Turning another page

So I started being responsible for children shortly after my fourth birthday.  My youngest brother was born and my mother basically expected me to take care of my middle brother, who was not quite one at the time.  I went from taking care of them to having my own children, and then before my children were grown, I was blessed with the care of my kidlette. 

She is now almost 19, and she is getting married tomorrow.  I am looking at the first time in 50 years of not being responsible for another human.  I'm not sure what life is going to be like.  I am so excited about my great grandson, and I hope to be able to be a big part of his life, but even if I take care of him while his parents are at work, it won't be the same.  It has also hit me that this is the first time in 31 years I haven't had to buy school supplies. 

My husband still hasn't found another job and severance pay ends today,  The company that laid him off has called him back as a consultant, but not under a contract for any particular period of time.  He's had about 4 interviews for 5 different positions with one more coming up next week.  I know the right job is out there, we just need to find it.  If anyone reading this does positive energy work, we would appreciate some to help find that right position.

I am making changes in my own spiritual life, as well.  Doing what I can to move closer to my desired goals.  I attended a talk from an elder in my tradition on being positive.  It really struck a note with me, and my life has really changed.  More on this another day.

Well, I'm off for now.  Hopefully I'll be back soon.  I'd love to see a comment from some of the visitors I have.  It might just encourage me to write more often!

Blessed Be

Adventures in Unemployment land

So my hubby has now been out of work for a month.  He has sent several applications, but no calls or interviews.  I gathered what I could, his supervisor at the job he had when we married was willing to send a letter saying that the materials we needed had been destroyed when the current company bought out the old one.  My doctor's office had a copy of one card, and by writing to almost every insurance company I could think of, I was able to get one more piece of verification for the third company.  I took them all in, and the worker said that because the copy of the card I brought in didn't have my name on it, she wasn't sure if they could take it.  It had my husband's name and said family plan underneath.

So now I sit here, making myself think positive thoughts, submitting applications for hubby whenever I see something he may be considered for, and watching my kidlette take her first steps into adulthood.

Last friday was the graduation ceremony.  I was so incredibly proud to see her walk across the stage.  She and I fought so hard to get her to this point.  Born with FASD, she has had to deal with low muscle tone, sensory integration disorder, anxiety, and depression.  My job was to stand by her, encourage her any way I could, and fight the system for her benefit.  It was worth every second, and I would do it over if I had to.

I feel this is a bit disjointed, but that's the way I'm feeling, disjointed, scattered.  I know that something good is coming, I'm holding on to the rope that keeps me grounded while a hurricane is blowing all around me.  Everything is going to be good, I know that to my toes.  It's just the getting there that is hard.

Till next time!