Take it easy, take it easy, don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy ......

It's been a time of pain for me. Right when I feel motivated to start working on my weight and want to start walking more, I can barely make it to the car before the pain sets in. I haven't been able to weed my flower garden yet, so right now it's filled with bright yellow flowers ... dandelions! My daughter has started sleeping in her new apartment, so I want to start getting the house cleaned up after 2 years of being over crowded, but I'm having trouble even sitting on the floor to clean. I'm so frustrated!

Still, I have to sit here, so I'm wondering, what am I supposed to be learning right now? I have to consciously direct my thoughts. I have a tendency to sit here and berate myself. I "should" get cleaning, I "should" get the yard looking good, I "should" _____________. This kind of thinking just drags me down. I'm trying to do things that will give me a feeling of accomplishment. I have lessons I need to work on, and I have what I need for the first one, perhaps I need to get to work on that. It just happens to be on the chakras. I have spent some time knitting, I've meditated a bit, and I've been surfing the web, looking for interesting information on things I'm interested in.

All in all, I need to be easy on myself right now. There's not much I can do about my herniated disc, and I need to take care of the bulging ones so they don't herniate, as well. I need to just take care of myself. Maybe that is the message I need to learn.

If there's anyone out there, I sure would appreciate a comment or two. Sitting here all day can get a bit isolating.

Intentions ........

Well, so much for being a dedicated blogger. Although it does seem I am the only one here. Since I am just doing this for myself, I suppose I get here as often as I'm supposed to.

I have all these intentions swirling in my head. Lately I've been getting up with the intention of attacking my dining room table. I've swept it with a glance. I've actually moved a thing or two, but that's been the extent of it. I feel like my life is in stasis at the moment. My daughter has been preparing to move out for 6 weeks now. She keeps saying "this weekend". Every thing seems poised on that event. Energy has gone to preparing the apartment. No one has done much around here, figuring that cleaning will be easier after the move. The energy is taken up in waiting.

I am going to state here that I will start on the table today. Even if it's only putting 2 things away, I need to start. I can't let my life be taken up in waiting.